The Lord has been good to our family. As all of you know, a great tragedy struck the Philippines with the 2 typhoons that went through our country. We live in Cainta, Rizal where almost a 100% was flooded with water. God delivered our family from the floods and landslides (the street prior us had minor lanslides). Plus, our local church arrived with relief goods. Thank God!
I was also able to pay for the remaining balance of my tuition fees. My dad was able to get an advance from his commission which we used to pay the school. Thank God!
My sister was also able to pay the entirety of $1300 which she needs to pay for her educational trip to Taiwan, and it was not just enough. God gave her with overflowing excess. Wow! He was not late. He was just on time.
Amazing, right? Thank you, Lord, for all of your blessings.
Please pray for my grades - Philosophy and Theology. I pray that I get good grades. Thank you Lord. :)
I was also able to pay for the remaining balance of my tuition fees. My dad was able to get an advance from his commission which we used to pay the school. Thank God!
My sister was also able to pay the entirety of $1300 which she needs to pay for her educational trip to Taiwan, and it was not just enough. God gave her with overflowing excess. Wow! He was not late. He was just on time.
Amazing, right? Thank you, Lord, for all of your blessings.
Please pray for my grades - Philosophy and Theology. I pray that I get good grades. Thank you Lord. :)
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If you could be a teenager living in any decade, which one would you choose?
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As I posted from my previous blog, the school starts next week. Still, we don't have the money yet to pay my tuition dues. I am worried - a lot. Three years ago, I would have brushed this issue off the table, but many things have happened since then. I experienced life - the real one. It's really harsh.
First time this happened, I was finishing my freshman year as a college student. (I don't know if this is the first one, but this is the first time we didn't had any solution.) I was acting cool. I thought - no, I think I knew - that God would not let me stop school. I was confident in my God. I was confident even though I knew we have done lots of misdeeds as a Christian. I believed that God would not let us experience such a devastating situation.
And then, it happened. I stopped. I was deeply hurt. I got seriously depressed for months. I almost attempted suicide! However, as I was trying to write the letter I was to leave behind, I remembered my little brother. I remembered his dream. Plus, he is really smart. I know that he has a great future ahead of him. I knew that. And I loved (and still do) him so much. I was the one who would help him fund for his college education. I was to help fund his future. And, if I die, my parents (although I know that they will try) will never be able to do this alone. We made an agreement to this.
I love him.
That was the only thing that kept me from doing that unthinkable act. I didn't know what was to be my purpose in this world, but I realized that even if I didn't know that, I can make this my purpose. I want my brother to have a great future. (He deserves it too!)
I have to be strong for this, but the circumstances we have make it seem like this was an impossible dream. I would like to be strong. I would like to rely so much to God, but because of what happened before, I am doubtful of what He will do. Don't get me wrong. I do believe in God. I've felt Him move - especially during our bad times. However, He has His own timing. Sometimes, that timing is the one that's killing me. I know He loves me and He will do something that is of His purpose, but the wait is sometimes too long. Sometimes, doubt (big bunch of it) creeps in. Sometimes I lose hope.
That is what I am feeling now. I feel no hope. Within two days, classes start. I am fearful that I might not be able to go to school again. But, I want to trust Him! I just don't know what to say to my friends AGAIN. I can't tell them this. I want to, but I can't. I don't know how. I don't want to lie AGAIN.
Please...
First time this happened, I was finishing my freshman year as a college student. (I don't know if this is the first one, but this is the first time we didn't had any solution.) I was acting cool. I thought - no, I think I knew - that God would not let me stop school. I was confident in my God. I was confident even though I knew we have done lots of misdeeds as a Christian. I believed that God would not let us experience such a devastating situation.
And then, it happened. I stopped. I was deeply hurt. I got seriously depressed for months. I almost attempted suicide! However, as I was trying to write the letter I was to leave behind, I remembered my little brother. I remembered his dream. Plus, he is really smart. I know that he has a great future ahead of him. I knew that. And I loved (and still do) him so much. I was the one who would help him fund for his college education. I was to help fund his future. And, if I die, my parents (although I know that they will try) will never be able to do this alone. We made an agreement to this.
I love him.
That was the only thing that kept me from doing that unthinkable act. I didn't know what was to be my purpose in this world, but I realized that even if I didn't know that, I can make this my purpose. I want my brother to have a great future. (He deserves it too!)
I have to be strong for this, but the circumstances we have make it seem like this was an impossible dream. I would like to be strong. I would like to rely so much to God, but because of what happened before, I am doubtful of what He will do. Don't get me wrong. I do believe in God. I've felt Him move - especially during our bad times. However, He has His own timing. Sometimes, that timing is the one that's killing me. I know He loves me and He will do something that is of His purpose, but the wait is sometimes too long. Sometimes, doubt (big bunch of it) creeps in. Sometimes I lose hope.
That is what I am feeling now. I feel no hope. Within two days, classes start. I am fearful that I might not be able to go to school again. But, I want to trust Him! I just don't know what to say to my friends AGAIN. I can't tell them this. I want to, but I can't. I don't know how. I don't want to lie AGAIN.
Please...
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Okay. I needed this blog to air out my feelings. I'm not the type of person to tell people of my problems, even when those people are my friends. In fact, instead of confiding my problems to them, I made a space between me and them. I hate myself for not having the strength to let them see that I am weak. I am weak. I hate myself for being that.
So, next week, the school year 2009 - 2010 begins. I was seriously and deeply hoping that classes would be postponed indefinitely because of the A(H1N1) virus. Classes start next week, but I haven't paid yet my tuition dues. That is our - my - problem. We are broke. It's been three years now. (I think going to its fourth.) However, thank God, this past year its been going better. Life wasn't hard compared to the beginning of the three years.
I have to tell you. Before all this, I didn't care about money. I even give my coins away when I get it as my change. I figured, "I didn't need them. Those were not large amounts." That was before. Now, we need every cent. (and to think that cents can't buy you anything in our country!)
I hope my tomorrow brings a very big miracle. I need it.
So, next week, the school year 2009 - 2010 begins. I was seriously and deeply hoping that classes would be postponed indefinitely because of the A(H1N1) virus. Classes start next week, but I haven't paid yet my tuition dues. That is our - my - problem. We are broke. It's been three years now. (I think going to its fourth.) However, thank God, this past year its been going better. Life wasn't hard compared to the beginning of the three years.
I have to tell you. Before all this, I didn't care about money. I even give my coins away when I get it as my change. I figured, "I didn't need them. Those were not large amounts." That was before. Now, we need every cent. (and to think that cents can't buy you anything in our country!)
I hope my tomorrow brings a very big miracle. I need it.
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